grateful

Yay for January nearly coming to a close. Having said that,. I am so loving that this January I am not buried deep in snow and ice in NL for three weeks away from my family. I am not stressed to the max trying to get everything done, even though its an almost impossible ask and I am not dreading the next encounter with the manager I had come to avoid at all costs due to his brutal and damning emotional outbursts, regardless of how hard you worked and how much you *had* achieved (which was mostly ignored)

I dont often post such an honest outlook on my work life but I have to say that the above is the truth about 90% of the time in my last job.

Currently in my new role I am still learning how things work and I hate this stage of a new job BUT I am trying hard to actually enjoy it as I am hoping against hope that this will be the very last time I feel this way in a role. That this will be the very last time I am the new girl learning the ropes of an organization.
But also I learnt so much from that highly stressful role that I know that I am a more confident person in this role than I would have been had I never lived that last role. For that, it was 100% worth it.

And I feel that I can post this now, that I can actually say it out loud and commit it to a blog post but I am no longer suffering anxiety. It has slowly left me. I am no longer on meds either. Its been a few months now but I seem to be operating without meds and anxiety seems to have left my life. It didnt announce its departure, it didnt wave a banner, it quietly left just as it quietly arrived in the first place.
I feel so incredibly grateful.

Christmas 2016

Found me with a stinking cold verging on flu and therefore I wasnt fantastic company, did disgustingly little in the house, enjoyed dinner that I had no part of making ( I did clean up though ) and binge watched Greys Anatomy.

I cannot believe that its taken me so long to come to the Greys Anatomy table. Its an AWESOME show. I am now on episode 12 of season 2 and I adore it and could watch it all friggin day! (and I did do that, exactly that on the 27th December)

The girls enjoyed an American Girl Christmas. Its likely Chloes last one of these as shes coming up to 13 and I know that shes a collector of these dolls, rather than a "play with them" type.

Despite being sick I really enjoyed the break, the being at home, the chilling out completely that came with this.

Oreo cat has continued to get well on her antibiotics and is so funny,so sweet, so nutty and kitten like playing in the house. Shes like a little shadow too. Its so nice to see her sweet personality coming out.