Its SO dark

As usual for this time of year I am hitting that season when as soon as it gets dark (between 4pm and 5pm) it feels like PJ time.
All I want to do is get home and hunker down in front of the fire in PJs with a book or Netflix.
In the summer this time is the start of the evening and of all thing possible - beach walks, BBQs, riding, walking, hanging out in the pool etc....
Why is it so hard to do anything now?
I have the same, albeit cold, time available in the evening as I had all year. I just dont want to do a thing in that time except get ready for bed.
Maybe bears have the right idea....

How are we feeling today?

So... its 48 hours since I stop existing on FB and so far I have found the following to be true about me:

• I have way more time. I even made soup on the first evening for lunch the next day. I dont think I have ever done that and it made me aware of how much I havent been doing.
• I have been looking around more at my home and really noticing it, in colour, like really looking at it.
• I am interacting more with everyone, including the pets.
• I like Instagram, but I am sure thats because I hardly follow anyone I know but the ones I do follow are in the Keys, or RV-ing around the US, or post amazing photos of Colorado or Arizona or wherever they are on the planet.
• There, so far, is no political, religious, argumentative or negative BS in my Instagram feed and I am on it for like 10 mins, max. On FB an hour would slide away easily.
• I am back to reading my blogs so instead of reading a ton of bitchy comments on a FB post and feeling low about how shitty people generally are, I instead feel happy, enlightened, informed, free.... OF.IT.ALL
• I have watched a lot of Gossip Girl. Its nice to have real escapism, in my home, without welcoming hundreds of strangers online comments and arguments in too.
• I like how my thumbs no longer ache from constant scrolling.
• Yesterday, at lunchtime I ordered my groceries online, did some research into flying from YHZ to XNA and how much hotels cost in Arkansas and perused some webcams in the Keys. I havent looked at those webcams for years.
• I am learning how to use things like Google photos for saving my photos instead. I realize most of the world already knows how to use Google photos but I dont. I am going to change all that.
• I am decidedly happier, already (and isnt that what life is meant to be about anyway?!).

Oreo on Friday evening

Kennedy, right now, as I write this.

Deactivating Facebook

Its come, D-Day.
I was in Cape Breton back in August and I read, on FB interestingly enough, a post by someone who deactivated their FB account. It was really interesting reading. I was sat, at the time, overlooking the most beautiful scenery, with a coffee at about 6.30am. The coffee was wonderful, the birds were singing, the sound of the ocean in the bay was soothing. I was aware of NONE OF IT as I had my nose in everyones business online.

I noodled this idea on and off for the rest of the day and on and off have considered it since. And did nothing about it.

I spend a lot of time on FB, needlessly scrolling, looking at stuff I am not interested in and feeling the opinions of way too many people in my home and becoming fed up, on a regular basis, with all the passive agressive memes that I see most days.
(pet hate of mine is passive agressive BS - I mean really... say what you want to that person)..

So today, with trepidation and trembling fingers (yeah seriously) I deactivated my account. And felt immediately like I had lost a bad relationship. I was lost, instantly, even with all my wishes to leave, like I had just felt a tremendous loss.

So right now whats going through my head is thoughts on how I will find the info I need (Google), follow the people I want to (Blogs), know if its a snow day at school (School website) and be up to date on the weather (google again).

I have become so needy of FB that its actually ridiculous.

Lets see how the remainder of the week goes.

where to be on my 45th

The other night we were at dinner with friends and the conversation covered what we wanted to do for our 45th birthdays and where we wanted to be doing it....and I got to thinking about where I wanted to be for that pretty sizeable birthday...
Thankfully its far enough off to allow for some saving (ha! we laugh at the idea of having enough spare cash to actually save for anything, but one can dream)

If all the stars aligned and we had the cash and my oldest could be out of school for it (unlikely) then I think I would like to be in Tranquility Bay resort in Marathon. I have been stalking that resort on FB for a couple of years now and its all kinds of idyllic and expensive. I would also like to revisit old Key West haunts just to see how it hits me ( emotionally or nothing?)  Key West used to be my personal paradise but amongst all the beauty there is a degree of major tackiness that I steered my kids away from from the moment they could read.

I wonder if its possible...